it's been 10years since japan big earthquake happened.

when i was 12 that earthquake was happened.

because i was lived in Kyusyu so i hadn't known that disastaer.

almost 10years have passed since that tragedy was happend.

at that time people in japan really think who we are, what is the significanse of their own life.

but now we totally forgot it except the people who had experienced that tragedy.

maybe i am also the one of the person who is not interested in that acccident.

when i was high school student i read the book "Hyakunen HO".

in this book it is written as follows.

when we look at the death our life will be brighten.

maybe the cause of my indifference toward all of the thing is caused by the lack of looking the death.

i dont know why i am there why i still live, although i dont want to suicide.